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Halsey wonders if they “chose the wrong life”, calling it “suffocating”
Halsey has revealed that they sometimes wonder if they “chose the wrong life” after confessing that they felt “deeply sad”.
“I discovered that there is often a deep sadness in me that cannot be touched by any dose of earthly pleasure, loneliness, emptiness,” the singer who uses her pronouns wrote on Wednesday.
“I often wonder if I chose the wrong life for myself,” they added a photo of burning candles at the top. “And the weight of it is overwhelming. I’m sorry that melancholy has permeated my art in a way that has served no more purpose than my own self-loathing. “
They continued, “I’m approaching my 28th birthday in a week, and right now I’m exhaling and gasping for the first time since I took one breath in this new life at 18. A breath that would hold me for a decade. “
The vocalist of “Closer” said that they felt as if they were “wandering around illegally” but that they hope to find meaning in their lives soon with the music.
“If you can’t be polite, at least be gentle,” they summed up the message, adding “with love.”
Halsey was always open about her fight against bipolar disorder after they tried to commit suicide and were admitted to a mental hospital at the age of 17.
“I have been involved twice since then [I became] Halsey and no one knows it. But I’m not ashamed to talk about it now, “said the singer Rolling Stone in 2019 about their ongoing struggle.
“It was my choice. I said to [my manager]”Hey, I’m not gonna do anything wrong now, but I’m getting to the point where I’m afraid I can, so I have to figure it out.” It is still happening in my body. I just know when to get close to it.
Over the past few years, the singer of “Without Me” has not only been concerned with her mental health, but have also been diagnosed with a myriad of other health problems.
In May, Halsey revealed that after a series of hospitalizations, they had been diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, Sjogren’s syndrome, Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS), and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS).
“I’ve been looking for answers to the root causes of some of these things which could be an autoimmune disease. And I know that most of my life I have had autoimmune problems, especially with endometriosis, “Halsey said on Instagram, adding that” they don’t want anyone to worry. ”